you gotta move

"i've been staying in my house
usually ripped or drunk
drawing water & flowers
all in blue"


it's the blue period.

from july 28

"i'm really fucked up right now
but it doesn't feel weird"

remembering-
a present to humanity
we remember things that
effect us or are important
(significant value at the time)

thoughts on nothingness-
it's a secret that not everybody knows
thus, we know something that the entire
human race doesn't. but we won't ever know
that we once knew

"we are all of us doomed to spend our lives watching a movie of our own lives- we are always acting on what has just finishes happening. it happened at least 1/30th of a second ago. we think we're in the present, but we aren't"

COMPLETELY REMOVES
YET SUBMERGED IN ONE
OVER ALL
FEELING & THOUGHT
PROCESS.

all nite diner

friday june 12, 2:44 am

on the couch.
republican, democrat, right wing, left wing, jesus freak
it's all the same fucking shit
bowl of cherry pits sit in front of me
baseball commercial
karate commercial
dance & fencing commercial
actually, dandruff commercial

squeek squeek squeek

mascara, collagen, big brush, 12x more
sharp blades
wednesday friday monday
fusion
looking for a connection-

insomnia
breath
birthday
cut
class
solo
bust
place
job
dance
base
drink
drink drink
T3

"you are a very distant memory,
that hurts to be brought up."

0601

" the white prisons the sidewalks swarming with maggots, the breadlines, the opium joints that are built like palaces, the kikes that are there, the lepers, the thugs, and above all the ennui, the monotony of faces, streets, legs, houses, skyscrapers, meals, posters, jobs, crimes, loves.. a whole city erected over a hollow pit of nothingness. meaningless. absolutely meaningless. rich or poor they walk along with heads thrown back and they almost break their necks looking up at their beautiful white prisons. they walk along like blind geese and the searchlights spray their empty faces with fleck of ecstasy. "

II

mentally deranged, lacking significance, insubstantial; crazed


slow
sick insanity
grabbing the back of the
throat
the bottom of the
stomach


"back away from
the
door"
she says


her
work stricken
mind
only half
thriving;
leaking
sewage spills
through fatty-lips
& a moth eaten
temporal lobe

in-sanity > -sanity

BUILD A
SUPPORT NETWORK
SO NEIGHBORS
CANNOT HEAR
YOU
GOING
OUT OF YOUR
MIND

0514

sickness leads to productivity
first attempt at my shredded t-shirt

more to cooooome.

1:42

"DAZE DAYS DAZE DAYS DAZE DAYS DAZE DAYS DAZE"

all we have is the present
i only wish that it all took
longer
i want you to give me a
phrase i have never
heard
before

the small amount
of faith
i had left for this
generation
rapidly diminished
this afternoon

it's all [been] done